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He who looks into the abyss realizes there's nothing looking back at him and the only thing he sees is his own shadow, Ricky. You understand, bud? The abyss? The shit abyss?

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Please be aware that people never tell the truth, not even when they really want to, not even if truth might be what they accidentally tell when trying to avoid telling the truth - all is a lie. We are nothing but a dream of a butterfly.

What's wrong with my brain? On my left side of the brain nothing's right, and on my right - nothing's left.

Apart from that, there is the Rex, as my colleague Oliver Emberton so elloquently has put it. In short, the idea of Rex is this: on one side of the coin - there is you, consisting of cells and around 80% water molecules. Mixture of organic leads that piled up for common goal. On the flipside there's the 13 billion year old DNA that has survived countless eons of mutations and environmental change - managed to memorize interactions with the environment and act upon it, improve, survive. This is the core you. This is Rex - he is primal, ancient, illogical, self-sufficient and influences all the decision you ever made. The rest of you that is not Rex some people like to call 'the Ego'. So basically the idea of the text below is to depict human behavior as a constant battle between the Ego and Rex. In the context of known psychological defense mechanisms. Hope you like it.

Before explaining what each means, I'd like to point out that repression is basically suppression's sidekick. The difference between the two is simple: while you consciously suppress, you subconsciously repress. Since consciousness (EGO) and subconsciousness (Rex) are part of the same entity, that is you, they basically keep learning to live together throughout your life, while you are trying to figure out things that define you as a person.

Bad memory is sometimes pretty bad. Your brain feels that through your body signals - when you're under emotional stress, your body crumbles too and alerts the magic box (your brain I mean). The magic box then tries to minimize the physical damage occurring because of it. Deliberately chasing away recorded memory can be a form of suppression, while repression is more of a subtle trait of your being, invisible to your aware self, and more damaging to your collective self. People have little control over how and when these two would make an impact on the conscious side of life - usually pops up even and when least expected. This has a lot of logic in it, because what might have triggered any of these traits could be closely related to the reason your mind developed a defensive mechanism in the first place.

Chasing away bad thoughts is like fighting a dozen midgets armed with plastic baseball bats while wearing protective gear - it's near impossible and very annoying. Daily chores are common repression denominator. However, a suppressed emotion is part of your "active memory processes", making small but constant impact on your overall performance, like it or not.

Similarly to the very many processes running on your smartphone that makes its battery drain out fast.

Take visual ads for example - little images and shapes bombarding your brain with such frequency that your brain stuffs them deep in your memory closet, presumably never to be reviewed again. Very unhealthy thing to do - you know that sooner or later you are going to open the closet and be avalanched by all the useless junk that you should have thrown away permanently in first place. Unlike your closet, your active memory is a bit harder to wipeout. Useless visual information that you receive on a daily is very overwhelming. At some point this redundant input just stops being noticeable.

So, in other words your brain learns to ignore certain stuff from the environment which it recognize as useless. The word ignorance itself carries negative meaning for no random reason - living in urban areas today is pretty damaging.

A natural spam blocker. Suppression is maintained by your brain on request-respond basis. Similar protection goes on for repression - difference is: you can't deal with repression directly. Or rather, your mind creates a protective vest so that you don't get emotionally overwhelmed by dealing with it directly.

Even though it sounds hideous, suppression is merely the thwarted little brother of repression and when the damage done is compared - the latter is undisputed champ.

Repressed thoughts are dealt with by the Rex, while suppressed thoughts are death with by your Ego. Your Rex is the very core of your being, down to atomic level, including your genes, the teeming atoms your body is made of. Once you have that inner self running a defensive mechanism, your very essence and behaviour is affected as consequence. It is such a powerful change that your Ego does not even have choice but to change accordingly and adapt to this new condition. You can't follow up on the progress, yet occasionally can get a subtle reminder of its existence. One example comes to mind: angel's trumpet - a cool plant that produces effects when ingested: problem is, it cannot be dosed, so effects power and frequency is variable every time and could potentially turn happy times into bad trips in a splittyness of a second.

Naturally, your Rex nurtures a very strong connection with your subconsciousness and is responsible for fundamental changes in your mind that you cannot possibly notice with your conscious mind. For example, all the major decisions in life that you make are made subconsciously. The majority of these important decisions are wrapped up while you were asleep. Yes, dreams are the residue of your subconscious mind battles. When you wake up, your Ego merges these decision into your everyday reality and clears out any inconsistencies that are pure matter-mind related on the go.

People able to fantasize qualitatively are good in creating stable altered reality to cover up the real world. The real world -- being real for your body mostly, rather mind -- is constantly around but rarely reminding of its presence. Just like World of Warcraft players who spend most of their conscious time in virtual environment, yet they occasionally AFK their way to some food and water from the RL (real world). These are example of your body wants, not your mind's. You can't ever bypass the RL completely because of your physical needs. However, what you can do is effectively reduce its influence on your state of mind. For a better living, because mind is over matter.

There are interesting examples showing how the brain itself makes a decision based on incompatibilities in reality. Seasickness, for example, can be explained thusly: your eyes and the part of your body which determines the direction of gravity pull seems to be contradicting at the moment of sea sickness. Consequently, the brain assumes that either your eyes or the vestibular are lying, hence something is really wrong, whatever the real reason. Millions of years of evolution have taught the brain that most likely this is a case of food poisoning, therefore your body should immediately discharge of stomach contents. Notice how the brain plays it safe in controversial situations and assumes both sources of information are false, instead of trusting either. (eyes and the vestibulary). A solid example on why dumb people have also survived today, it's not a flaw in evolution, guys.

The decision making part of your brain is wedged so deep and out of reach of your normal thought processes ganglia, that it resembles a cartel, shaping the drug biz reality from the safety and relative comfort of a high security prison cell or some hole in the mexican desert stuck deep in the asshole of wilderness. Regular Joes don't have the privilege of even know exact location. You are also that regular Joe, so get used to it. There is something that is not only part of you - it is literally you, yet you can't see you, touch you . So your best bet is just to get used to you.

Let's say you are being a rebel about it and try to alter your personality because you know it will please a person whom you care a lot for (or care somewhat, does not have to be love). You'll find the task almost impossible in long terms. Changing yourself? Tough job. Here is why: There is a solid reason why you behave in a certain way and have opinion of your own. In the middle of your conscious and unconscious self stands your Rex - a bunch of matter merged together by chemical bonds. This matter-bond relation is as old as the universe, since all parts involved have been evolving since matter came into existence. You are made of stuff that is few billion years old (at least). That stuff is so complex and refined in time, that it is just not a subject of change. It's like changing the structure of the atom.

Your ego, on the other hand, is a subject to change. Because the Ego, unlike the atom, is not a real thing - it's a made up thing.

To illustrate the difficulty in making changes to both Rex and Ego, I'd say modifying your Ego would be like carving wood, while changing your Rex would be like turning mud into diamonds using a set of lab test tubes and a match stick. Often times, a repressed memory is completely hidden from the Ego and surfaces much later in life, mostly because it's been triggered somehow. The triggers are made possible because the repressed memory is not completely erased, but there is a string of information leading to it at all times. Once you are presented with a situation that touches that trigger, you may experience or re-experience emotions similar to those of the repressed memory. The repressed event may also come out in new form - spending time in your subconsciousness for so long can easily reshape it a little. It's like a piece of cheese you forgot in the fridge for like a month - seen those alien-like moth formations? That's what I'm talking about. This new form could be an emotional complex or it could also be represented by matter, or a malignant biomass (brain tumor). Another example -- just to take your mind off brain tumors -- is when people accuse you of being lazy while the half-truth is that you're just sleepy and lethargic or a bit slow. By the way, I did try to distract you from the brain tumors because a huge percent of people get brain tumors by simply reading more about it. Just kidding :)

Here is an example of long buried suppressed matter, surfacing much later: Let's say you were scared shitless as a child by your half-wit cousin, who crept near your bed at night and tuck a dead bird between your sheets. This event can easily be the reason you still pee yourself at night even though you are now old enough to order you own beer. Or instead of peeing yourself, you started smoking tobacco. Truth is, every time you try to quit smoking, you'll find it extremely difficult, not because of the addiction level and yada, but because you are tampering with a tender link between your conscious self and a repressed memory of yours. Best scenario - or at least some possible scenario - would be your Rex shutting down vault 13 for good. Or should i say - for your own good.

Some people, psychologists included, may suggest completely unrelated reasons for your bad habit, this serves to prove that the real reason is not way below the surface, or maybe that they simply want your money. The real reason is only for you to have and no one else. You just carry it with you, like a tick on your asscheek - or some other place on your body you can't' observe without the use of a mirror.

Back to the smoking habit example: You may come up with false reasons for this just to straighten up you Rex-Ego frictions, but in the end, most likely your Rex would not let your Ego know the real reason. Similarly, if you erase something from your hard drive, it does not just magically disappear - there are some traces left behind that can reveal what was previously stored there. Similar traces in the memory makes your brain trigger defensive mechanisms when needed. The brain has a capability of recording everything you experience, especially visual memories, and selectively puts some of the stuff on record. The Rex makes you indulge in bad habits as a result of dramatic occurrences in the past. The phrase Bad habits, however, have a very negative meaning - so I prefer to use: side effects.

If your uncle raped you as a kid and you started smoking tobacco as a result, simply watching stuff about abused children can make you want to light up one. I'm aware of this being not the perfect example, but nothing is ever perfect, including me.

I made this!

Suppression Pros: you are in control of what you consciously deal with, you can relatively easily manage not to think about something, at least for a few minutes.

Suppression Cons: bad memories tend to return back to conscious mind, as something that is not entirely dealt with emotionally, just like a expired task in organiser. Egos like to keep the table clean and remove any emotional waste. Truth is, the best way to trash this is by concentrating on emotional waste of biger proportions.

Repression Pros: easy. Your Rex does all the dirty work for you. Oh, and you have no control over what it actually does or how often. The Rex is the very core of you, yet you cannot change or control it, not even willingly or consciously - it's like re-knitting your sweater while wearing it. By sweater I was referring to your unique DNA chain of strings. It's like a software program with lots of functions, but not one that can delete its own files. And final example, for y'all nerds out there - it's like a robot without a self-destruct button.

Repression Cons: You most likely will experience some side effect that you will try to explain with ongoing facts. But you will fail. Because the real reason is well hidden by the Rex, despite the fact your memory may be littered with related clues. Plus, don't forget, repressed emotions also cause cancer. So never hold a grudge for too long.

Chasing away bad thoughts is like fighting a dozen midgets armed with plastic baseball bats while wearing protective gear - it's near impossible and very annoying. Daily chores are common repression denominator. However, a suppressed emotion is part of your "active memory processes", making small but constant impact on your overall performance, like it or not.

Similarly to the very many processes running on your smartphone that makes its battery drain out fast.

Take visual ads for example - little images and shapes bombarding your brain with such frequency that your brain stuffs them deep in your memory closet, presumably never to be reviewed again. Very unhealthy thing to do - you know that sooner or later you are going to open the closet and be avalanched by all the useless junk that you should have thrown away permanently in first place. Unlike your closet, your active memory is a bit harder to wipeout. Useless visual information that you receive on a daily is very overwhelming. At some point this redundant input just stops being noticeable.

So, in other words your brain learns to ignore certain stuff from the environment which it recognize as useless. The word ignorance itself carries negative meaning for no random reason - living in urban areas today is pretty damaging.

A natural spam blocker. Suppression is maintained by your brain on request-respond basis. Similar protection goes on for repression - difference is: you can't deal with repression directly. Or rather, your mind creates a protective vest so that you don't get emotionally overwhelmed by dealing with it directly.

Even though it sounds hideous, suppression is merely the thwarted little brother of repression and when the damage done is compared - the latter is undisputed champ.

Repressed thoughts are dealt with by the Rex, while suppressed thoughts are death with by your Ego. Your Rex is the very core of your being, down to atomic level, including your genes, the teeming atoms your body is made of. Once you have that inner self running a defensive mechanism, your very essence and behaviour is affected as consequence. It is such a powerful change that your Ego does not even have choice but to change accordingly and adapt to this new condition. You can't follow up on the progress, yet occasionally can get a subtle reminder of its existence. One example comes to mind: angel's trumpet - a cool plant that produces effects when ingested: problem is, it cannot be dosed, so effects power and frequency is variable every time and could potentially turn happy times into bad trips in a splittyness of a second.

Naturally, your Rex nurtures a very strong connection with your subconsciousness and is responsible for fundamental changes in your mind that you cannot possibly notice with your conscious mind. For example, all the major decisions in life that you make are made subconsciously. The majority of these important decisions are wrapped up while you were asleep. Yes, dreams are the residue of your subconscious mind battles. When you wake up, your Ego merges these decision into your everyday reality and clears out any inconsistencies that are pure matter-mind related on the go.

People able to fantasize qualitatively are good in creating stable altered reality to cover up the real world. The real world -- being real for your body mostly, rather mind -- is constantly around but rarely reminding of its presence. Just like World of Warcraft players who spend most of their conscious time in virtual environment, yet they occasionally AFK their way to some food and water from the RL (real world). These are example of your body wants, not your mind's. You can't ever bypass the RL completely because of your physical needs. However, what you can do is effectively reduce its influence on your state of mind. For a better living, because mind is over matter.

There are interesting examples showing how the brain itself makes a decision based on incompatibilities in reality. Seasickness, for example, can be explained thusly: your eyes and the part of your body which determines the direction of gravity pull seems to be contradicting at the moment of sea sickness. Consequently, the brain assumes that either your eyes or the vestibular are lying, hence something is really wrong, whatever the real reason. Millions of years of evolution have taught the brain that most likely this is a case of food poisoning, therefore your body should immediately discharge of stomach contents. Notice how the brain plays it safe in controversial situations and assumes both sources of information are false, instead of trusting either. (eyes and the vestibulary). A solid example on why dumb people have also survived today, it's not a flaw in evolution, guys.

The decision making part of your brain is wedged so deep and out of reach of your normal thought processes ganglia, that it resembles a cartel, shaping the drug biz reality from the safety and relative comfort of a high security prison cell or some hole in the mexican desert stuck deep in the asshole of wilderness. Regular Joes don't have the privilege of even know exact location. You are also that regular Joe, so get used to it. There is something that is not only part of you - it is literally you, yet you can't see you, touch you . So your best bet is just to get used to you.

Let's say you are being a rebel about it and try to alter your personality because you know it will please a person whom you care a lot for (or care somewhat, does not have to be love). You'll find the task almost impossible in long terms. Changing yourself? Tough job. Here is why: There is a solid reason why you behave in a certain way and have opinion of your own. In the middle of your conscious and unconscious self stands your Rex - a bunch of matter merged together by chemical bonds. This matter-bond relation is as old as the universe, since all parts involved have been evolving since matter came into existence. You are made of stuff that is few billion years old (at least). That stuff is so complex and refined in time, that it is just not a subject of change. It's like changing the structure of the atom.

Your ego, on the other hand, is a subject to change. Because the Ego, unlike the atom, is not a real thing - it's a made up thing.

To illustrate the difficulty in making changes to both Rex and Ego, I'd say modifying your Ego would be like carving wood, while changing your Rex would be like turning mud into diamonds using a set of lab test tubes and a match stick. Often times, a repressed memory is completely hidden from the Ego and surfaces much later in life, mostly because it's been triggered somehow. The triggers are made possible because the repressed memory is not completely erased, but there is a string of information leading to it at all times. Once you are presented with a situation that touches that trigger, you may experience or re-experience emotions similar to those of the repressed memory. The repressed event may also come out in new form - spending time in your subconsciousness for so long can easily reshape it a little. It's like a piece of cheese you forgot in the fridge for like a month - seen those alien-like moth formations? That's what I'm talking about. This new form could be an emotional complex or it could also be represented by matter, or a malignant biomass (brain tumor). Another example -- just to take your mind off brain tumors -- is when people accuse you of being lazy while the half-truth is that you're just sleepy and lethargic or a bit slow. By the way, I did try to distract you from the brain tumors because a huge percent of people get brain tumors by simply reading more about it. Just kidding :)

Here is an example of long buried suppressed matter, surfacing much later: Let's say you were scared shitless as a child by your half-wit cousin, who crept near your bed at night and tuck a dead bird between your sheets. This event can easily be the reason you still pee yourself at night even though you are now old enough to order you own beer. Or instead of peeing yourself, you started smoking tobacco. Truth is, every time you try to quit smoking, you'll find it extremely difficult, not because of the addiction level and yada, but because you are tampering with a tender link between your conscious self and a repressed memory of yours. Best scenario - or at least some possible scenario - would be your Rex shutting down vault 13 for good. Or should i say - for your own good.

Some people, psychologists included, may suggest completely unrelated reasons for your bad habit, this serves to prove that the real reason is not way below the surface, or maybe that they simply want your money. The real reason is only for you to have and no one else. You just carry it with you, like a tick on your asscheek - or some other place on your body you can't' observe without the use of a mirror.

Back to the smoking habit example: You may come up with false reasons for this just to straighten up you Rex-Ego frictions, but in the end, most likely your Rex would not let your Ego know the real reason. Similarly, if you erase something from your hard drive, it does not just magically disappear - there are some traces left behind that can reveal what was previously stored there. Similar traces in the memory makes your brain trigger defensive mechanisms when needed. The brain has a capability of recording everything you experience, especially visual memories, and selectively puts some of the stuff on record. The Rex makes you indulge in bad habits as a result of dramatic occurrences in the past. The phrase Bad habits, however, have a very negative meaning - so I prefer to use: side effects.

If your uncle raped you as a kid and you started smoking tobacco as a result, simply watching stuff about abused children can make you want to light up one. I'm aware of this being not the perfect example, but nothing is ever perfect, including me.

I made this!

Suppression Pros: you are in control of what you consciously deal with, you can relatively easily manage not to think about something, at least for a few minutes.

Suppression Cons: bad memories tend to return back to conscious mind, as something that is not entirely dealt with emotionally, just like a expired task in organiser. Egos like to keep the table clean and remove any emotional waste. Truth is, the best way to trash this is by concentrating on emotional waste of biger proportions.

Repression Pros: easy. Your Rex does all the dirty work for you. Oh, and you have no control over what it actually does or how often. The Rex is the very core of you, yet you cannot change or control it, not even willingly or consciously - it's like re-knitting your sweater while wearing it. By sweater I was referring to your unique DNA chain of strings. It's like a software program with lots of functions, but not one that can delete its own files. And final example, for y'all nerds out there - it's like a robot without a self-destruct button.

Repression Cons: You most likely will experience some side effect that you will try to explain with ongoing facts. But you will fail. Because the real reason is well hidden by the Rex, despite the fact your memory may be littered with related clues. Plus, don't forget, repressed emotions also cause cancer. So never hold a grudge for too long.

Slice

There is no such thing on the internet or any other unreliable public source anywhere else. This should be publicly spead out, yet there is not a single image of a US flag on the surface. Don;t tell me it's on the dark side of the moon, yeah, of course. This proves beyond any reasonable doubt that Americans mos definitely faked their landing back in '69. Just so that Russians stop failing at it as well and accept the Holywood versin of the Moon mission. Good job, everyone!
Looking at brain MRI recently, I could not help but notice how much snails and human brains have in common. Just look at him stuffed up in his bony fortress (image below), protected from the environment by a hard bone hat is the skull, his most precious info gathering tools are at hands reach - I'm talking about eyes, ears, arms, etc.

Both the brain and the snail are stuffed in a shell and are slimy. Sliminess could be afforded because of the hermetic skull /shell protection and is more comfort because body feels good in slime matter.

Differences?

Not very much. One that crawls to mind is the ability of the snail to get out of it's 'home' when his shell gets broken or severely outdated. Brain, however, does not leave the safe place, he has made himself an inseparable part of the body/skeleton frame. In this perspective, snail is much more versatile even tho we claim human brain is way smarter. Local evolution follows this pattern: future species are more vulnerable but a lot more smarter to confront the elements directly. For example, snails have shells but this is all they got against blizzards, earthquakes or volcanoes. Human brain builds bunkers, have fire departments and arguably is facing problems directly rather than running away from them.

Conclusion: just think of the brain as the creature that it is you, because what you see in the mirror is just an outer protective shell that your brain is looking at. Also, when you look in a mirror, try to see through the eyes, where the brain resides, try to feel what it's like to be it. See if he turns his eyes away..

I will crush your handsome arm!

One well known but little acknowledged fact: the word beautiful is used for females and objects, handsome - for men. Let me say that again: men are not beautiful, they could only be attractive.

Is the gender gap closing or what is it that it is doing? Two absolutely different words to describe male and female attractiveness? Here is my theory: Male adults are not pretty in any point of their lives, except maybe as little boys, where their grandmothers and shit may occasionally find them adorable. This counts for little girls too. Adults tho, are divided into beautiful and handsome, simply based on the presence or absence of a pair of sweaty balls.

On the contrary, the word to describe ugly males or females is one: it's motherfucking "ugly" for all gender. So why is this you ask? Well, not pretty/ugly individuals are just easy to categorize that way. Call them ugly and you don't need to know anything else.